George
Vance
© George Vance 2009
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LIBRARY
This
thing he wanted to do was not properly speaking
proscribed by the ethos into
which he had been born, nor heartily encouraged
in a systematic manner, but was,
in moments of public rituals of license, such
as theater evenings or cinema after-
noons, instinctively applauded. And its imperative
nature was compounded - almost
as starkly as the wanted thing itself - by the
clean-planed corridors of
the medium in which he conceived forward toward
its enactment.
Volition was process; objects obstacles to be
brushed aside.
stand/sit/lean/walk purposefully, directionlessly
- the vectors
arrowed at him from all sides : a rectangle between
two
subjects a clear channel between two objects a
right
turn a knight's el move cul-de-sac niche of blank
wall at the end of a shelf up the unclimbed steps
to the
mezzanine behind a gray steel cabinet with numbers
in white squares unthwarted swipes past a hundred
sundry
ABC'd rubrics stopgostandstill: wire-driven forkliftlike
scanningchecking
pure isolate cubicles ceiling tiles
brightwhitelight metal stairflights
tough-blue carpets oblong pillars
square-empty shadows of shelf-
ends
zoom in on
zoom at
the self-hallowing spot
reflecting wonder
in an open field-like space
desk door reading table
to-and-fro-ing :
an outrage
yet:
like blood on a tulip sweat on cri-
nolin smegma on a lemon tart a
booger on a blank page barf on a
créche shit in an ode pus..
too late
Thereafter
he often returned to the place where the thing
he had wan¬ted had not happened, where it
had once hovered, pulsing without his accomplishing
accession. He thought of roping off the spot in
some secret non-visible way, to enshrine the site
of his unachieved wish, making a religion of want,
but there were no boundary materials ready to
hand.
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George
Vance
© George Vance 2009
George Vance is a Paris based
poet and has read at many Paris venues. His work
has been published
in Paris journals Upstairs
at Duroc & Pharos
